Who's The Goose?

 As these rants continue, if you feel like these posts have helped you in any capacity or if you think they should give a little more insight, leave some feedback. I'm here to learn and grow with you guys. Please know that it's hard to offend me, so do your worst. 

The good thing about taking so long to get shit done is that I have a bunch of ideas stored in my Rolodex. 

Anyways, as I try to navigate life, eventually we have to face the ugly thing we call - dating. It's fucking weird, I haven't dated since I was 20 and having to date as a full-time dad is so lame. I remember laughing at those old Farmers Only and e-Harmony commercials that used to come on and thinking who are these nerds that actually that desperate to fall for this shit. 

Now, here we are 20 years later - and who's the goose? 

Tinder, Hinge, Bumble..I'm not going to go into how much I think they're a bunch of crooks putting everything behind a paywall, but I digress. Aside from all this nonsense, the issue that I have found with dating and the struggle that I find myself in currently, is that I want to speak to that person frequently,  my schedule is awful but I'm willing to lose a few minutes here and there or go to sleep a little bit later if it means I get to speak to you. That's cool and all, but my biggest thing is that I don't want to be a nuisance to anybody, I understand that I have to respect that people are busy, and are also in the middle of managing their lives, not even including the fact if they're parents that just throws a wrench in everything. 

So now, I ask you guys. What works for you? I'm not one to whore around and just sleep with whoever, learning from my mistakes, I'm trying to take a very surgical approach on who I want to bring into my life. But here's the kicker, I nor does the person who I'm interested have time to waste, so we circle back to, how the fuck do you approach this?

And to add the cherry on top of this already complicated pile of shit, let's get someone who my daughter is going to be comfortable and feel safe around. 

At this point, and it's way easier said than done but I'm trying to rely on my faith just to kind of guide me. It'll happen when it needs to and trying to force feed it isn't going to accomplish anything. But it's difficult, or maybe I'm just overthinking it and making it more complicated than it needs to be. 

Also also, disregard that I forget shit. There's no script or bullet points to these posts so know that I am freestyling along the way and I write as it comes to me. Sometimes, it can be a therapeutic 'cause as I'm writing, I find myself having an AHA moment, I think my issue could just be the fear of rejection is lingering and I've never gotten over that. 

I guess I'll leave that for my next call with my therapists.